Friday, June 26, 2009
Minus 1
I am fighting to keep alive
where you used to fit
like a puzzle
piece
of my heart
that slipped out
of the box
on the closet floor
of a house that was sold
for much less it's worth
to someone who
defaulted on a loan
and auctioned off
spied while cleaning
it meant nothing
next to the waded gum
and cotton swabs
in the waste basket bottom
shame
you will wind up in the dump
apart from the box
you belong in....Nobody knows you are gone.
The puzzle with the missing piece
sits on a strangers shelf.
They are none the wiser.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Unconditional
I was talking to someone not to long ago about how messed up I am. That's not to say that there haven't been improvements. Much has changed with me, but there are still grosser emotional handicaps I guess you could call them, that no matter how hard I try to change them, they still remain. This person told me that much of my neurotic crap would just melt away if I was smothered in unconditional love. I thought they might be on to something. After a phone conversation with this same person today, I was meditating on this concept of unconditional love when I realized that God is the only one who could possibly be capable of loving me unconditionally, and I am good with that. I really am, but sometimes...I just want God to have skin.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Reigning On Me
I awoke to rain dancing on my tent
as the thunder rolled it's tongue in my ear
the damp air wrapped it's arms around me
begging me to breath deep the
earthy musk that filled my lungs
as I stretched out before you
in my mind.
I brushed the sleep from my eyes
and I knew...you were with me
Always with me
in this restless heart.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Mistakes
I tripped
on an old pair of shoes today.
laying like the past
in the hallway of my future.
the dirt of their
soles threatening to smudge
the floor that was just wiped clean
and I pondered
how they got there.
I remember the last time I wore them.
They pinched and blistered. They always did.
As if they weren't mine at all
but those of one
with a heart much
smaller.
I thought I had tossed them away
Yet here they are.
I think them ugly now.
The shoes of one not loved
but if I toss them
they will likely appear again
unexpectedly
to trip me in the dark
brightness of my future.
So I will clean them up
and hide them away in a corner
of my heart
Until God makes them useful
again.
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